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ღ ·•Me┋●dY '☆MAkE it Personal ღ ┋Degenerate AngEl 11/17/2007 “▽/，执迷罘悟：《无法释怀）~現在很多事情都摆在眼前了，
我浪费了一年的时光 来成全一个彻底错误的感情。
我不知道我曾经在谁的生命里出现过， 又或者說从来没有，
只是高估了自己。
感情结束沒必要闹的翻脸不认人，不想这样。
却又不知该如何面对，现在对于我来說。 时间已经不多了，
在这段日子里我是否应该将自己的一切 处理好。。。
可是想来又没有必要，只是为自己为这样一段不值的感情
而失去的一切，该要如何挣回来。
不要再說什么谎话，其实你的一切我都知道，
请你不要 低估了一个女人的第六感，把我当傻子一样耍。
感情不再，就结束，就这么简单。
可以說。 我没有缠过你，
也请你看在我们曾经在一起的分上， 放了我，不要再打乱我平静的生活。
或许我们可以成为朋友，又或许以后我们谁也不再认识谁。
只是以后没有我照顾你，要自己好好的。
不是每个女人都可以像我这么傻。
但是還要谢谢你 让我明白了，小丑永远是小丑，再努力也不可能成为主演。
好好爱她，不管谁现在在你身边。
我们的事，终于要放一放了。
谢谢你，因为， 在你把我骗的团团转的时候，
是我最满足的时候。
谎言永远是最圆满的。
by kunk
----------------------------------------------The ღnd 11-16-07
10/3/2007 10月3号，N久以后回来说说话我们都有好多话要说，可是很多时候只能说给自己听。
是谁说过年龄越大愿意听你说话的人就越少，所以还是自己自言自语吧
今天做了塔罗牌测试，“测测你的吃醋指数”
嘿嘿，我可是个大醋坛子。可是之前一直不相信这种东西的，可是这两次都好准哦。
5张排分别代表吃醋指数0，20，60，80，100.
我抽到100，呼呼~
分析：
你的吃醋指数是100分。完全的醋坛子！古人说，小醋可以怡情，偶尔吃吃飞醋可以充实两人的感情生活，但是醋吃多了就有可能会到原本坚固的感情哦。你坚定不移持之以恒的多疑会给两人关系带来很大问题。往往完全没影的事也被你捕风捉影当作了真事来处理。这样会给他带来很大的困扰。当心他因为被你烦到忍无可忍而假戏真做啊！
好灵哦，困了，睡了。。。 11/30/2006 醒着的呓语又是情绪低潮期，好像越来越情绪化了
那么自私地不去顾忌身边人的感受，
一副离群索居的样子，惹人厌
忽然想爸爸，有点可笑
因为跟他真的不是很熟，虽然他爱我
和朋友都断了联络，慢慢疏远
却又开始想他们，想关于友情
寂寞
想写东西的时候电脑不在身边
坐在电脑前又不知道写什么
有大大陪在身边，唯一的安慰
生气，道歉，生气，道歉
乐此不疲
呵，我们在爱情里耍我们的小脾气
忽然很迷茫，
迷茫得不知道什么是迷茫
迷茫
喜欢上很安静，悲伤，阴郁的文字和图片
一直都喜欢的，
只是现在特别强烈
于是心血来潮
想一些关于善良和邪恶的东西
天使和恶魔
并存
爱恨交融
没有人是真正的天使，但有人是完完全全的恶魔
没有逻辑
可乐加橙汁是什么味道
——好味道
悲伤和幸福可不可以共存
——不知道
可不可以不长大
——不可以
11/20/2006 NM17天没更新过了，可是却感觉过了很久，1年的样子，
什么是久，1年？有多少1年……
最近流很多很多的眼泪，心情不好，听烂俗的爱情歌都可以流泪，
电脑开着放歌放了一夜，房间里凉凉的，开了暖气，空空的，
房间始终干净不起来，有些道理始终不懂，不懂承上启下
在镜子里看到头上的一根白发，想找到第二根却再也找不到
忽然想到徐和猪，想知道他们的结果，
打了电话回家，大家都说怎么那么久没打回来
那么多人关心，还是不知足
得到了 想要 更多
可乐和橙汁，哪一个更悲伤？
喝掉悲伤，会变快乐还是更悲伤
阳光那么刺眼，不是金色也不是红色，
感觉快要爆炸了， 全世界一起毁灭
那么自私 忽然想到很好的借口
没有人爱，所以自己多爱自己一点
没心没肺
自欺欺人
讲话总是言不由衷 大脑短路的次数越来越多
11/3/2006 ……不知道是不是因为太想睡了，弄得今天一整天都像在梦游。明明是阳光灿烂，却感觉身后的一切都在轰然倒塌。好想自己也就这样倒下去，什么都不管。其实说不在乎别人的看法都是假的，要不然在学校也不会那么不开心。
THE END-----------14。52  11/2/2006 好久不见,,,,感觉N年没来更新过日志了，很对不起自己，可是还是不知道该写什么。
今天终于学会怎样在SPACE里放歌了，可是却不知道放什么，，
说学会，，，汗，，，弄好了还是放不出来，郁闷ING……
刚刚去看以前写的一些日记，原来我的生活那么无聊的，诶，比起生活，好像我更无聊点。/
总想做点改变，又不知道该干嘛，，晦气，感觉自己最近又变丑了，心力憔悴T_T....
就连想把背景换掉都有点舍不得,呵呵,念旧的孩子
.................................................................................................... THE END 11-3-06
8/26/2006 Sweetbox-Life Is CoolSweetbox-Life Is Cool (Music) I never really try to be positive I m too damn busy being negative So focused on what I get And never understand what it means to live You know we all love to just complain But maybe we should try to rearrange There s always someone Who s got it worse than you My life is so cool My life is so cool From a different point of view My life is so cool My life is so cool From a different point of view (Music) We re all so busy tryin to get ahead Got a pillow of fear when we go to bed We re never satisfied The grass is greener on the other side We re so distracted with the jealousy Forget it s in our hands to stop the agony Will you ever be content On your side of the fence? My life is so cool My life is so cool From a different point of view My life is so cool My life is so cool From a different point of view (Music) Maybe you re the guy who needs a second chance Maybe you re the girl who s never asked to dance Maybe you re lonely soul A single mother scared and all alone Gotta remember we live what we choose It s not what you say It s what you do And the life you want Is the life you have to make My life is so cool My life is so cool From a different point of view My life is so cool My life is so cool From a different point of view 6/2/2006 热6/2/06 舅舅和阿姨吵架了,从她的口气听不出来到底严不严重,最怕就是离婚了,也许不会吧,我总会把事想严重,........................................................但愿一切都好好的 5/24/2006 vinele一个人的时候，会想起来很多：走过的人，走过的事。一个人的时候，会想念、会思考、会忧愁或者哭泣。
而我总觉得其实每个人的眼前或者心底，总会有一些有形或者无形的眼睛在关注自己。那些所有的我们曾经无意走过、读过、用心想过、惦过的名字，无论你身处喧嚣还是静夜。我总是以为，像现在这样独自静对自己的时候，才是纯粹的一个人--一个没有被繁尘琐事异化的纯粹意义上的人，才会有那些洁白如纸张一般的潜意识涌动上来，比如思念，比如流泪。当我们心中积存了大量的无意识，我们会在某个很平常的时刻被某种自己都不清晰的东西柔软的触碰哭泣。泪水是一个女子感人的部分，当叔本华说这个世界就是悲哀的时候，我们说先哲出世了，所以有泪。 记起来一些遥远的语句：当我笑着流泪，我才懂回忆能如此珍贵。所以当我们说起回忆，说起失去的时候，已经有死亡的味道远远的飘过来了。生命本身就是在一次次的得到和失去中衰亡。失去，由此想到偶尔在口中说起的幸福。朋友说失去才知道什么是幸福，是这样吗？如果在失去的时候感到，那实在只是一种过滤--把忧伤带走，把美好放大的过滤。只是，这样的过滤总是像一根尖锐的刺，深深的扎在身体里，让你的每一次辗转都鲜血淋漓。 幸福其实只是一种情感体验，心理学的课本里如是说。马斯洛曾经写了一本书叫做《幸福心理学》。 慢慢长大后，总是无端的怀疑幸福的存在。但是至少身边还是会有人跟我说起她很幸福，并且极力的让我相信这个世界应该有幸福存在。幸福，当我们被人在乎和重视的时候我们会感觉到，当我们晚归时看到家里灯光明亮的时候我们会感觉到......在街灯下那些手拉手的人们，我会觉得他们很幸福；在广场上看到笑吟吟和孩子嬉戏的年轻的爸爸妈妈，我会觉得他们很幸福。幸福是有差别的，他们不尽相同，也许我应该这样想。 幸福或者也脆弱，有时候实在是不堪一击。譬如爱人的突然转身，譬如健康的轰然倒塌。疾病是什么，也看过了身边的一些生来死去，而从不曾想到过今天我也要面对自己的身体的病痛，或者是我太年轻的缘故吧。但是相信灵魂的存在和相信你的存在，那也都是我的生命存在和继续的理由，正如我相信每一个生来的名字都是在等待着与另一个名字重逢的。相信，所以幸福就在一瞬，即使短暂。 还有梦想，想起幸福的时候，我还是察觉到自己曾经有过的梦想。一年一年的过去，这种梦想已经是偶尔才会回来找我了，但它还是无比的诱惑着我，像一个遥远的梦境一样一直萦绕着我。想有一个小小的院子，种一大片一大片的花，四季不败，一茬接着一茬。庭院中间应该是一棵栀子花，初夏的时候会静静飘香，我在庭前闲闲的看，闲闲的等，等我应该走过的一生和一世，和那个陪我走过一生一世的人。 在梦想里，我们都在幸福着和走过着。 去努力的相信每一个人都是有个名字在远处或者不远处等待着你的。想起来关于幸福的你的名字，我轻轻的捧起，轻轻的读它，黑暗中有叮咚的声响。想起来关于幸福的你的脸庞，在寂静的黑暗中缓缓缓缓的清晰起来，于是扬脸张望，就像几千年的约定在某一个特定的时刻我们静静的相视而笑。 人就是这样,要失去的才懂得珍惜.这句话已经滥用到俗了,但现在真真切切地体会到.
已经不记得多少次诅咒要离开这个鬼地方了,但现在离离开的日子越来越近了却开始舍不得了,
还有28天就要回去了
莫名的郁闷
想到就要离开这个曾经讨厌透了的"家",那个还没开始布置干净就要离开的房间,那个有那么多不算很好的朋友的学校,熟悉的生活,ANAHEIM.
不是舍不得离开这里,也不是舍不得离开那些人和事,过去的终究过去了,该离开的最终还是要离开的,只是无奈,什么都不能做,甚至什么痕迹都没有留下,也没有必要留下
也许在很久以后回忆,这一年甚至会被忽略,
谁会在意这一年呢,就连自己也不会
也许真正离开了,又不会那么难过,就像小学毕业时那样
反正是麻木了 5/12/2006 晴真的真的好想大家
想到和大家成群结队队地去食堂拿着本书去复习,
去吃牛肉粉丝,
在小巷子里吃糖葫芦了,
运动会的时候在学校里瞎转,几乎把整个学校都转遍了,
在食堂吃肉串喝牛奶,聊天了,
和夏冰婧在课上唱歌,沈竟臻绝望的眼神......
一个人上学,一个人跑去另一个教室,一个人吃饭,一个人走路.
习惯到开始喜欢这种感觉了,可以安静地想乱78糟的东西.
END 3.33 5-12-06 5/11/2006 超热5/1/06
昨晚做梦又梦到郭昱维了,真的大概6年没见了吧,为什么最近接二连三地梦到她,
醒来后有中胸闷,
数学课上,
Alexsandrew在喊:
"Hey,is HONGKONG belong to FRANCE?"
当场晕倒,
体育课上,哪个名字貌似VECTOR的死胖子问:"Hey, what's ur name?"我还没说完,他就说:"I don't care!" 把头转过去了,
几秒钟后再把头转过来,看我怎样面目狰狞,
5/2/06
臭女人
5/5/06
5555~好想好想好想回家.
但是......
大脑一片混乱
5/8/06
有的时候觉得自己挺可怜的,可怜到找不到词来形容现在的生活状态,
每天闲着的时候就是上网,不是有了隐,实在是没事做,就连上网也没事做.
5/10/06
越来越累了,完全不是我嘛,
怎样打回原形？/
哈
5/11/06
今天好热哦,感觉好像进入夏天了,就像一年前.哈哈,今天是我来美国一周年纪念日诶,但好像没什么特别的,还是照常过
这些都是在SSR的时候写的 END 11.04 5-11-06   5/7/2006 ~很久没认真写自己的心情了,因为太琐碎了,或者每天的心情大同小异
每天都会有很多想法, 很复杂，但是现在回头看好像每天都差不多
不管当时多难过,多郁闷,现在都很平静了
END 8.46 5-7-06 
4/24/2006 晴每天对着那么多人笑好累,但别人对我笑总不能臭着脸给人家看,可以感觉到我笑得多难看
放了一个星期假就觉得上学不习惯了,好累
手忽然不能抬了,昨晚睡之前头疼得快死了,折腾到好晚,睡着了又好冷,
第三个QUARTER GPA得了3.83    
END 4.41 4-24-06 阴人改变不了改变不了的事情 END 10.50 4-23-06 天气不明--6月22的机票 还有2个月就可以回去了, 高兴~~~~~~ END 23.42 4-22-06 
晴大热天跑老远去图书馆,却关门了,当场晕倒, 再跑到家已经不能动了 end 4-21-06 3.58 4/19/2006 去看你生日的那个月，我的还蛮准的----------JANUARY------------------- Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. A fighter. Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality. ----------FEBRUARY-------------------- Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match. -----------------MARCH-------------------- Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days. ------------------APRIL------------------- Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking. generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer evryone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. hott but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themself and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days. -----------------MAY----------------- A born Leader (if late May birthday). Loved by the oppisite sex. Loves to be spoiled and spoil back. Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Amazingly the best by far in bed. Has all the answers to make others happy. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Not shy towards oppisite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the lowerback and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves Sports, literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home (unless accompanied). Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Definatly a keeper. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next day. ------------JUNE------------- You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become oneof your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes. ----------------JULY-------------- Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days ------------AUGUST--------------- outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter. repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month. ------------SEPTEMBER--------------- Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. If you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days. ---------------OCTOBER------------------- Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, the sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years. ---------------?NOVEMBER?-------------------- Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest women (Laci & Lexi) are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. repost in 5 mins & you will excell in a major event coming up sometime this month. ---------------DECEMBER--------------- This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. A hott new guy/girl will catch your eye & you will catch theirs too in the next 6 days, if you repost in the next 5 mins 4/15/2006 我的----------------JULY--------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days 4/9/2006 晴(冷冷的)--来自阿姨的信亲爱的万舒:
前几日看到你的日志,我很是吃惊, 之前我一直以为你在LA的这半年生活很开心,也已经很好 地融入到现在的环境中了.但没有想到你对周遭的人和事竟有着如此多的不满,不屑和仇 恨.这让我始料不及,因为自从你去到那儿你从来没有和我说过这些.每次通电话你都说 一些开心的事儿,新奇的事儿,让我对你很放心. 你说"我做我想做的事儿,不在乎别人的想法",这句话和著名的 "走自己的路,让别人去说吧"是一个意思吧,但我不知道走自己的路是否意味着要让自己 和身边的人都受到伤害. 很多话我觉得我在这儿说不清,但我至少知道,你这个年纪就是 叛逆和任性的代名词，你这一切想法我都能理解，因为我也有过青春年少，有过你这样 的年纪，有过你这样的想法．若干年之后你就不会对这一切耿耿于怀了． 我只想告诉你：很多事情你可以怀疑，可以不理解，可以不信任，但有一点你 一定要相信：你身边的每个人都很爱你，真的很爱你！ 爱你的阿姨 说实话,有点不敢看,这封信,
应该是逃避或是自己的心情被看到反正怪怪的.
不是恨,是逃避.
信里说到仇恨,我觉得不是吧,
这个词用得有点恶毒,应该知识讨厌.
还有最后一句话好经典哦~`~
END 8.31 4-9-06 4/3/2006 z "情人劫"这一条街 向前蜿蜒 闭上双眼 泪淌满面
深邃的眼 依然怀念 挂在天空 你的笑脸 我该退缩 还是向前 我该思念 还是再见 这一条街 渐行渐远 睁开双眼 我的梦魇 已经失去 如月红颜 现在留下 只能祭奠 我该许愿 还是叛变 我该迷恋 还是成全 情人节 我受劫 这世界 在凋谢 4/1/2006 晴--诚实的孩子现在几点:21.07 现在几点:21.23
She is so so so so so stupid,stupid!!
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